Who Am I Supposed to Be?

A Piece of Chocolate Week 13, Dec.5, 2007 Who am I supposed to be? Hay Girlz!! My goal for writing this today is to make sure that you are encouraged in your faith and brought to the fact that who you are is who God intends for you to be! So many times I thought that God wanted me to be different things. For example, I thought I was supposed to be a wife to a guy running from the “Local Authorities”. Ok, let me explain. I met this guy at church working in the children’s department. I really thought that guys at church were good guys! Well, that didn’t work out…thankfully. Then, I thought that God wanted me to be a “Pastor’s Wife”. I was working in a small church when I met my pastor’s brother, who by the way, was a senior at a Bible college. We were engaged I think for a month. Then I was royally dumped! I’m embarrassed to mention this one…I thought that God wanted me to be rich so that I could focus on getting people saved instead of worrying about a house payment. So far that hasn’t happened. Do you see how ridiculous all that was?! My whole focus was wrong! I was always thinking about who I could be in my own world of self-centeredness instead of who I actually was/am in Jesus. It’s much more glamorous to think of the possibilities rather than the reality. Even if the incredible reality is that I am a child of the King of Kings! What a relief. Avoid creating your own road block of who you think you’re supposed to be, versus who He wants you to be, just because you don’t want to change. Let the Lord enhance who you already are! Then, you will be fulfilled no matter where you are in your journey with Jesus. Ok girls, I promise to keep my preaching to a minimal. The summer before I got married, 8 years ago, I was working in a school district in Nebraska, (Go Huskers!), and I was also the youth and music leader for a small church. Things were so great. Then about 7 months later, I got married and my gosh was that a challenge of monumental proportions. The time came and my hubby shared his deep conviction about how I shouldn’t be a leader in the church. Oh poop. Talk about a shock to my system. “Father, did I really just marry this guy?” What was I going to do? Well had we dated longer than 7 months, I might have known that rather important conviction of his before hand! Wanting to stay married longer than the average couple in Hollywood, I think it’s now 9 months, up from 6, I stopped working at the church and I took a new job as a bank teller in a credit union. I felt like the person that God had always wanted me to be, was being challenged by my Hubbylove. Not true! My focus was merely on what was easy to do, (argue with him),as a basis for where my faith was at that particular time. Let’s remember that God wants an active relationship with us first. You can do almost any job and be His child. Moving on, it took many, many conversations to understand where Hubbylove was coming from. As it turns out, we both had the same conviction it’s just that we each worded it differently. So here’s the first lesson. Based off of James 3:13 “If you are wise and understand God’s ways, prove it by living an honorable life, doing good works with the humility that comes from wisdom”. It will also help to be engaged to who you believe God wants you to marry for at least one year that way you can understand how your future hubby handles those fall and winter holidays and also for the benefit of seeing first hand if the Super bowl will take precedence over you, no matter how incredibly hot you look! Now, let me hear a big AMEN to all those fantastic married women! Have a fantastic week! In Him, Dede